Evolution

[Pink Floyd]

I have been in a state of restless turmoil. In just the past few weeks I have gone from highs of sitting in the bathroom watching a hot 25 year old shave her pussy, and asking me to check if it was close enough, rubbing all over her and then both us getting too fucked up, to sitting by myself at a SC bored to death because I was the Newby.

I went the standard route married 3 times and raised 3 children. I jumped into the Hobby full blast last December. Now in kind of reverse evolution I have been hitting the Strip Clubs. I have been getting some numbers and even met a provider that I had been in contact with for about 8 months, but she was so fucked up that night that i just said goodnight. I think I am nearing the end of my SC cycle and if something doesn't pan out with a certain lady today I may not be back.

I may take a 3 month hiatus except for one certain girl in the Hobby. This would give me a chance to get my shit together and maybe move into the Sugar Baby realm. Have you ever just been totally restless and uneasy?

It’s a restless hungry feeling
That don’t mean no one no good
When ev’rything I’m a-sayin’
You can say it just as good.
You’re right from your side
I’m right from mine
We’re both just one too many mornings
An’ a thousand miles behind

Bob Dylan

[buzzworm86]

Originally Posted by FlectiNonFrangi

I have been in a state of restless turmoil. In just the past few weeks I have gone from highs of sitting in the bathroom watching a hot 25 year old shave her pussy, and asking me to check if it was close enough, rubbing all over her and then both us getting too fucked up, to sitting by myself at a SC bored to death because I was the Newby.

I went the standard route married 3 times and raised 3 children. I jumped into the Hobby full blast last December. Now in kind of reverse evolution I have been hitting the Strip Clubs. I have been getting some numbers and even met a provider that I had been in contact with for about 8 months, but she was so fucked up that night that i just said goodnight. I think I am nearing the end of my SC cycle and if something doesn't pan out with a certain lady today I may not be back.

I may take a 3 month hiatus except for one certain girl in the Hobby. This would give me a chance to get my shit together and maybe move into the Sugar Baby realm. Have you ever just been totally restless and uneasy?

It’s a restless hungry feeling
That don’t mean no one no good
When ev’rything I’m a-sayin’
You can say it just as good.
You’re right from your side
I’m right from mine
We’re both just one too many mornings
An’ a thousand miles behind

Bob Dylan

Wish I knew what you meant by SC cycle?

Dude, you may hate the thought of it, but we are in the same boat. About the middle of August I showed up here.
History:
-never married
-pathologically/self-destructively shy
-bipolar
-one short in duration GF 20 years ago
-lived in Alaska, the worst place to meet women, eithwer lesbians or the guys with the biggest boats get claimed first.


Furthermore, I got the urge for some physical touch. Two BP girls in a day. Waste o time and money. Found P411 and Eccie. I had not gone to a strip club in 15 years, and I never went alone or sober before. But Ive been 3 times in a month;. One young woman seems like she is wanting a sugardady thing. The thought crossed my mind to go for it.

This avenue of provider, etc is really unfulfilling, I may be on my way too. But the intigue and social contact is fun. So what the hell does a guy do? Start going to church?

[London Rayne]

You can't find everything you seek here...I will just say that. You can't buy true emotion and intimacy so if that's what you're looking for, it's not here. Those things are freely given by those who feel the same way about you as you do about them.

The restless feeling may be due to a void you are trying to fill that can only be filled by something real...not p4p. I have been there before.

[Fancyinheels]

You guys are seeing the wrong providers, and SC are not going to fulfill your needs. If you can't find one P4P companion that makes you feel like the most special guy in the world, whether for the afternoon or the LTR, then you need to broaden your search to gals who don't get f-up on a regular basis, maybe try some older, more stable, more sincere ladies.

When did "sugar baby" replace "mistress?" (And I don't mean the kind with the spike leather boots and whip.) I think the old-time mistresses and/or courtesans need to make a comeback for "deeper" penetration on both the emotional and physical levels. Maybe it wouldn't be as ideal as a "real life" relationship, but it could be a good approximation.

[buzzworm86]

Originally Posted by London Rayne

You can't find everything you seek here...I will just say that. You can't buy true emotion and intimacy so if that's what you're looking for, it's not here. Those things are freely given by those who feel the same way about you as you do about them.

The restless feeling may be due to a void you are trying to fill that can only be filled by something real...not p4p. I have been there before.

You are right, but its tough to find those people who are looking for it too. And if one is to developmentally arrested to know and understand it he misses the boat all the time. The years zip by. You are also right about the restless feeling, and it is pysically painful I spent 20+ years numbing it. Only recently have I understood the actual difference (i dont yet know the emotional) between p4p and intimacy. Someone, thanks (LR) has helped with this. The toughest part is if a 40 y/o is just learnig what a 16 y/o is learnig what then. Rhetorical. Because many providers half my age know. Its a confusing mess.

[London Rayne]

You're quite welcome hon...always there if you or anyone else here needs to talk. I don't charge for that lol.

[Wakeup]

"There's ALWAYS time for lubrication!"



/not obscure

[London Rayne]

Oh Wakeup...always here to keep things in perspective lol.

[acp5762]

Flect, I think I understand what your post is getting at. This angst, It's common really. Here ya are looking for ways to releive it or revive yourself from it. Strip Clubs, Escorts,ect. Thats temporary and superficial. Maybe its time to reintroduce Flect to Flect, lol. I was told once, if a person thinks the same, and behaves the same, has the same ideals at 50 as he did at 30, he has wasted twenty years of his life. We have to always feel free to reinvent ourselves. For what may give us purpose in life today, may surely be different tommarrow. We must arm ourselves well with the experiences from our past to meet the demands of our future, because thats what living is.

[London Rayne]

Originally Posted by acp5762

Flect, I think I understand what your post is getting at. This angst, It's common really. Here ya are looking for ways to releive it or revive yourself from it. Strip Clubs, Escorts,ect. Thats temporary and superficial. Maybe its time to reintroduce Flect to Flect, lol. I was told once, if a person thinks the same, and behaves the same, has the same ideals at 50 as he did at 30, he has wasted twenty years of his life. We have to always feel free to reinvent ourselves. For what may give us purpose in life today, may surely be different tommarrow. We must arm ourselves well with the experiences from our past to meet the demands of our future, because thats what living is.

I like this post. Very insightful and chalk full of WIN!

[pyramider]

You mean for the last 20 years I have become more cynical and sarcastic?

[hobbyprojb]

Originally Posted by FlectiNonFrangi

I have been in a state of restless turmoil. In just the past few weeks I have gone from highs of sitting in the bathroom watching a hot 25 year old shave her pussy, and asking me to check if it was close enough, rubbing all over her and then both us getting too fucked up, to sitting by myself at a SC bored to death because I was the Newby.

I went the standard route married 3 times and raised 3 children. I jumped into the Hobby full blast last December. Now in kind of reverse evolution I have been hitting the Strip Clubs. I have been getting some numbers and even met a provider that I had been in contact with for about 8 months, but she was so fucked up that night that i just said goodnight. I think I am nearing the end of my SC cycle and if something doesn't pan out with a certain lady today I may not be back.

I may take a 3 month hiatus except for one certain girl in the Hobby. This would give me a chance to get my shit together and maybe move into the Sugar Baby realm. Have you ever just been totally restless and uneasy?

It’s a restless hungry feeling
That don’t mean no one no good
When ev’rything I’m a-sayin’
You can say it just as good.
You’re right from your side
I’m right from mine
We’re both just one too many mornings
An’ a thousand miles behind

Bob Dylan

Like I have told you before my friend..You will see the hobby in a whole new light once you move or take a vacation to South Florida. South Florida is Hobbyist Country. Hobbyist in South Florida enjoy private parties with the girls, discounted dates & plenty of beautiful women to choose from. We are a close knit community.

I just think right now that your in the wrong area. Maybe you need to take a vacation down South to give you that jump start & bring your spirits up.

Also, you will not have a problem if you want to go the Sugar Daddy Route in South Florida. Plenty of college girls & providers would take you up on your offer.

Just my 2 cents...

[Laz]

I understand where he is coming from. I am not looking for love here. Being recently divorced I am not ready to head down that path yet. However, I still want sex but not just with any random hole that is handy. I want the possibility of a friendship with a provider where trust and mutual affection exists. I may be delusional to think I will find it here but Reese in Dallas had a similar thread from the providers perspective so I am hopeful. One thing I am sure of is that it will not exist after one visit so I choose not to meet with touring ladies. Although there are 3 I would make an exception for.

I have also been looking at the sugar daddy option.

[London Rayne]

Originally Posted by hobbyprojb

Like I have told you before my friend..You will see the hobby in a whole new light once you move or take a vacation to South Florida. South Florida is Hobbyist Country. Hobbyist in South Florida enjoy private parties with the girls, discounted dates & plenty of beautiful women to choose from. We are a close knit community.

I just think right now that your in the wrong area. Maybe you need to take a vacation down South to give you that jump start & bring your spirits up.

Also, you will not have a problem if you want to go the Sugar Daddy Route in South Florida. Plenty of college girls & providers would take you up on your offer.

Just my 2 cents...

Oh good grief! He is not whining about hookers in the hobby, or prices. He is flat out saying what he seeks is not being found here...like maybe MORE than just a nut?? It may sound crazy, but there are some men on these boards who want more out of life than random, MEANINGLESS sex with people they pay. Just sayin.

[acp5762]

Originally Posted by pyramider

You mean for the last 20 years I have become more cynical and sarcastic?

I don't know. Are you asking a question or really stating a fact.