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marisaofdallas · 12-31-2012, 08:25 PM

MODERATORS IM NOT SURE THIS IS IN THE RIGHT PLACE, BUT..

"My Way"

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.

I've lived a life that's full.
I've traveled each and ev'ry highway;
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, I've had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.

But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried.
I've had my fill; share of losing.

And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
"No, oh no not me,
I did it my way".

For what is a womman, what has she got?
If not herself, then she has naught.

To say the things She truly feels;

And not the words of one who kneels.!!!!

The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!

****************************** ****************************** *

THAT IS A PERFECT SONG, ......EVERY WORD...

Hello everyone and Happy New Year

The time has come, and in the end, I had to make some really important decisions
as this New Year comes in..

Ive decided to leave the business that I gave 19 years of my life to

I have alot of people to THANK

and even more people to tell TO GO LICK BALLS!!!!

LOL MOST OF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN .....ITS COMPLETELY BEEN A FUCKING CRAZY LAST
3 YEARS...

In the next 24-48 hours, my phone 214-315-9779 will be cut off..

ALL OF MY WEBSITE/ ADS / PROFILES HAVE BEEN DELETED OR DEACTIVATED OR REMOVED

I DONT HAVE MUCH TO SAY...I KNOW ALOT OF PEOPLE ARE WONDERING WHY

SOMETHING HAPPENED, SOMETHING HAS BEEN HAPPENING ...
AND SOMETHING IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN

PLEASE RESPECT MY DECISION AND BE HAPPY FOR ME

(AND IF NOT THEN KINDLY GO FUCK YOURSELF....)...LOL

YES ITS TRUE, I AM NOT EMPLOYED ELSEWHERE...YET BUT HAVE QUITE A FEW THINGS IN
THE BALANCE

ITS TRUE THAT I AM LOOKING FOR WORK

AND ITS ALSO TRUE THAT I HAD SHUT DOWN EVERYTHING BECAUSE EVERYTHING RELATED TO
MY REAL NAME ---

WAS ALSO RELATED TO MARISA OF DALLAS

THERE IS NO WAY A PROFESSIONAL DEGREED PERSON SUCH AS MYSELF CAN FIND WORK

AS LONG AS THESE THINGS EXIST AND ARE ACTIVE ONLINE..

IVE LOST TOO MANY OPPORTTUNITIES UPON SOMEONE GOOGLING MY NAME, PHONE NUMBER,
EMAIL ADDRESS, FACEBOOK, ETC.,....

IT ALL SCREAMS PORN STAR ESCORT MARISA, NOT SOMEONE TO BE TAKEN SERIOSULY

LET ALONE GIVEN AN OPPORTUNITY, EVEN THOUGH SO WELL DESERVED

IT BEING MY PAST IS ONE ISSUE.......

BUT I NEED TO CUT TIES , ITS MOTIVATION AND HEALING I NEED BEFORE ATTEMPTING TO
RETURN TO A LIFE OF WORKING IN A NORMAL OCCUPATION

IVE HAD ENOUGH DEATH, LOSS, PAIN, ABUSE AND TRAUMATIC HEARTBREAKING MOMENTS AS A
PROVIDER..

*******************

WELL I MADE A FRIEND ABOUT A MONTH AGO, FOR MY GROUP.. YOU WOULD KNOW HIM AS THE GUY THAT
HELPED ME MOVE ....

A FRIEND... A MALE FRIEND...... HAS SHOWN ME NOTHING BUT COMPLETE SUPPORT AND
RESPECT

A FRIENDSHIP SO NEW YET A PERSON SO REAL AND THAT HAS NO ALTERIOR MOTIVE

I AM CRAZY ABOUT HIM

AND TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH

HE WAS THE FINAL REASON I HAVE DECIDED TO CHANGE MY LIFE

HE DIDNT ASK ME TO CHANGE ANYTHING..HE WAS JUST THE ONE PERSON THAT TOLD ME TO STOP COMPLAINING AND JUST DO IT, BECAUSE HE ENCOURAGED ME AND BELIEVES IN ME ..

I AM SURE, SO SURE THAT ITS TIME AND THAT OUR FRIENDSHIP WAS FORMED AT SUCH A
STRANGELY APPROPRIATE MOMENT ...

AND MY HEARTS DESIRES ARE NOW BEYOND MONEY, FAME AND POWER

I AM COMPLETELY ENJOYING THE FEEELING OF ONE MANS TOUCH, ONE MANS COMPANY AND
ONE MANS ATTENTION

I DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN IN THE FUTURE, I JUST KNOW IT FEELS REALLY FUCKED
UP TO THINK ABOUT HOW I FEEL ABOUT HIM AND FUCKING ANYONE ELSE,,,

AND IT SEEMS COMPLETELY DISRESEPCTFUL TO GIVE ANYONE ELSE THAT INTIMACY ANYMORE

AM I IN LOVE? MAYBE I AM... BUT I WONT TELL AND ITS REALLY NOT THAT IMPORTANT
THAT YOU KNOW THAT,

WHATEVER IT IS, ITS GREAT...AND ITS DONE WONDERS FOR EVERY PART OF ME, MY SELF
ESTEEM, MY VALUE, MY SELF WORTH AND SELF IMAGE HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED

MY ABILITY TO LET GO EMOTIONALLY AND SEXUALLY.......AND ACTUALLY ENJOY THE
CONNECTION THAT SHOULD HAPPEN WHEN TWO HUMAN BEINGS FUCK

IVE NEVER EXPERIENCED ANYTHING LIKE IT

IT MADE ME REALIZE WHAT I WAS MISSING AND I WANT IT..

I WANT MORE OF IT

AND I WANT TO SEE HIM STAY IN MY LIFE

EVEN IF HE IS JUST MY BEST FRIEND, AND IT NEVER BECOMES ANYTHING MORE THAN
THAT.... I DONT CARE...I STILL WANT TO BE FAITHFUL SEXUALLY AND INTIMATELY...

I AM NOT WILLING TO LOSE THAT..

.IT S JUST TOO IMPORTANT TO ME

IF I STAY, THE ANGER AND PROBLEMS AND STRESS RELATED TO THIS BUSINESS THESE DAYS
...WILL TOTALLY INFILTRATE MY PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP

LADIES....

THIS BUSINESS ASKS ALL OF YOU.....AND I GAVE IT!! AND RARELY LEAVES ANYTHING
LEFT FOR ANYONE ELSE....

IF YOURE DOING IT RIGHT ANYWAY, LOL

THIS POST IS COMING FROM A WOMAN THAT HAS DONE THIS FOR 19YEARS...

WAY TOOOOOOO LONG..LOL

I ALWAYS HAD ANOTHER OCCUPATION, BUT THE LAST 6 , I WAS EXCLUSIVELY A PROVIDER

AND I WANT TO GIVE IT TO ONE

NOT TO ALL

ANYMORE

ITS A BEAUTIFUL DAY IN MY HEART AND MIND, A TRIUMPHANT MOMENT AND A RELEASE FROM
THE BONDAGE AND DEGRADATION I HAVE EXPERIENCED THE LAST FEW YEARS

I USED TO LOVE MY JOB AND I WASNT AFRAID OF ANYTHING

BUT UNFORTUNATELY IVE BEEN SHOWN ONE TOO MANY TIMES THAT I WAS WRONG

AND I FELT TRAPPED

SO PLEASE LET ME GO,

AND PLEASE DO FORGIVE ME IF I OWED YOU SOMETHING

I JUST CANT ANY MORE

MY LIFE HAS SHOWN UP AND IM GOING WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE

THANK YOU AGAIN FOR EVERYTHING

GOODBYE

AND HAPPY NEW YEAR

IT IS THE BEGINNING OF THE END...

SO

..THERE ARE A FEW THINGS I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF THIS MONTH FINANCIALLY THAT ARE
IN QUESTION....

IF ANYONE WOULD BE WILLING TO HELP WITH THIS ONE LAST THING..

LITERALLY.. ONE LAST THING

I WOULD BE SO GRATEFUL

I CANT SAY WHAT IM WILLING TO NEGOTIATE

MAYBE IM JUST HOPING SOMEONE OUT THERE REALLY SUPPORTS WHAT IM DOING AND MIGHT
BE WILLING TO LET ME DO ANOTHER KIND OF WORK/CLEANING/ ETC...

IF YOU HAVE DAUGHTERS, SISTERS, MOTHERS AND WOMEN IN YOUR LIFE THAT HAVE MADE
DECISIONS THAT LED THEM TO A PLACE OF NEED..

THEN YOU UNDERSTAND

I CANT POSSIBLY THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR CONSIDERING

THE REASON I AM NOT WORKING IS BECAUSE MY KIDS ARE HERE FOR THEIR CHRISTMAS VACATION.. I CANNOT WORK AND WAS RETIRING ANYWAY...

THEREFORE I AM BEGINNING THE END OF MY CAREER AT A TIME WHERE I NEEDED TO COMPLETE A FINANCIAL GOAL BUT IS THERE EVER A .."RIGHT TIME" ..,

I AM TAKING A LEAP OF FAITH AND DOING WHAT MY HEART AND BODY ARE BEGGING ME TO DO..

WHEN I BROKE THE NEWS TO MY CHILDREN, MY 19 YEAR OLD ADMITTED TO KEEPING UP WITH THESE POSTS AND THAT SHE WAS WORRIED ABOUT ME
I WAS ALSO MET WITH A HUGE HUG AND A "DOES THAT MEAN I CAN COME HOME AND LIVE WITH YOU AGAIN?"

ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT SOME PROVIDERS HAVE TO CHOOSE OR RISK HAVING THEIR KIDS TAKEN AWAY BECAUSE SOME DISGRUNTLED CLIENT CALLED CAUSE PROBLEMS

I KNOW I STILL NEED TO TAKE CARE OF A FEW THINGS..
BUT HONESTLY...
I AM WILLING TO RISK EVERYTHING FOR A CHANCE AT BEING HAPPY AGAIN..

I AM LETTING GO OF WHAT MAKES ME UNHAPPY BECAUSE THERE IS SOMETHING THAT NOW IS MAKING ME GENUINELY HAPPY
...

LET ME KNOW IF ANY OF YOU HAVE ANY KIND OF WORK, I AM AVAILABLE FOR ...ALSO
PLEASE CONSIDER TAKING A LOOK AT MY RESUME IF YOU KNOW OF ANY EMPLOYMENT
OPPORTUNITIES

I AM CONVINCED I WILL FIND WORK WITHIN A MONTH AND NEVER HAVE TO RETURN HERE
AGAIN

PLEASE HELP ME MOVE ON..

I DONT WANT TO GO BACK

PLEASE HELP ME WITH THIS FINAL AMOUNT WITHOUT HAVING TO SUBJECT MYSELF TO
ANYTHING ELSE THAT MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE.....

PLEASE CONTACT ME AT 214-315-9779

OR EMAIL ME AT marisaofdallas@gmail.com

as my number above WILL BE DISCONNECTED

also my facebook http://www.facebook.com/marisaofdallas

and for the last time

if anyone is interested in helping support the cause of someone like myself
DOING THE RIGHT THING ....

AND CHANGING MY LIFE...

PLEASE CONTACT ME

MODERATORS PLEASE CLOSE THIS THREAD AND IS THERE ANY WAY I CAN RESPECTFULLY ASK YOU TO REMOVE ANY THREADS I HAVE POSTED AND ANYTHIN RELATED TO ME

MY CERTIFICATION TO RETURN TO THE LEGAL FIELD WILL BE FINALIZED IN JANUARY AND I WOULD APPRECIATE HAVING ANYTHING THAT MAY COME UP IN AN INTERNET SEARCH ( YES EVEN OF MY REAL NAME) ....REMOVED, PLEASE...

I HUMBLY THANK EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU,,,

WISHING YOU THE BEST AND ASKING FOR FORGIVENESS AND UNDERSTANDING FOR ANYTHING I MAY HAVE DONE IN THE LAST 2-3 VERY DIFFICULT YEARS

I DID HOWEVER PROUDLY WEAR AN AMAZING TITLE

FOR MANY MORE YEARS THAN I EVER EXPECTED

THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT AND ADMIRATION

THANK YOU AGAIN....

AND THANKS FOR LETTING ME SHARE..

OK IM READY...

LADIES ITS ALL YOURS....

HAPPY NEW YEAR

MasterBaiter1996 · 12-31-2012, 08:53 PM

Good luck to you.

marisaofdallas · 12-31-2012, 08:59 PM

Thank you!

nitro1 · 12-31-2012, 09:30 PM

Never got to see u. But good luck to u.

VIP Mya Michelle · 12-31-2012, 10:37 PM

I really enjoyed reading your goodbye. I am happy for you. I hope everything turns out great for you. In fact i know it will.

This is only one way to make money and though it can be the quickest; it is not always the best for long term support for everyone, especially when wanting to mean more to someone romantically.

A regular job is great and will have you feeling even more snuggly and comfy than the prospect of an appointment.

I must admit i too am looking for a regular job because once you add up all the hours of keeping up with hobby boards, posting advertisements, sorting through html, updating your website & schedule on all the boards, creating banners, writing ads, posting new pictures, sifting through ISO's, chatting, taking down old pictures, keeping up with regulars, contacting refrences, replying to emails and inquiries, keeping up-to date with alerts, maintaining your pedicure and manicure & keeping yourself safe over all can easily have you putting in 4-8 hour days on the computer ANYWAYS everyday even if u dont have an appointment that day

(atleast thats how much time i put into it... i understand some girls just post a picture and the calls come flooding in, and if thats their case heck, i'd probably think this was the most peachy keen as you can get... but in my experience this is still a job).

You still invest alot of time and energy and skill into mastering this profession... You could easily put that same effort into making a documented career. I know that i am getting old as well going on 24, if i dont do something better now, I know that i will create a rut that i will not be proud to be in at 30...

So good luck out there, I know you will accomplish whatever you set out to do.

AMP Surfer · 01-01-2013, 12:34 AM

WOW! Good luck to you and take care and God Bless! Wish you happiness and the best of health as well! Surfer

RealBeer285 · 01-01-2013, 01:26 AM

All, I know she really means to make this break from her former life and I hope nobody gives her grief for her trying. She is going to have plenty of struggles ahead to find her new road, just don't create bumps for her.

ManSlut · 01-01-2013, 01:41 AM

Marisa, I saw you many years ago when I was just a BoySlut and it was a very good time...This is a very difficult Hobby and for the beautiful Ladies who do it with Honesty & Integrity even more so. What you ladies have to put up with is amazing. You were a wild one and wore your emotions on your sleeve, so, to have done it for 19 years is incredible to me !! I am sad that you are in a bad spot, but very glad you have chosen a path that has a HEART for you...My very best wishes and love on your new journey.

The Passionate ManSlut

RealBeer285 · 01-01-2013, 01:58 AM

In case anyone is wondering, i am not the one with Marisa tonight, wish I was . I just wish her all the luck in the world.

blaeese · 01-01-2013, 08:20 AM

Well said. Best of luck to you in the future.

LovingKayla · 01-01-2013, 11:34 AM

Ok wait... 19 years and you need help paying basic bills to retire on?

Has there ever been a thread you started that didn't ask for money?

For you new folks, don't fall for this. This woman does this about 4 times a year, and shes batshit crazy to boot. She's right on schedule to ask for more money. Have I mentioned how when we helped her a few years back, I gave her everything I had in the way of cat food and canned goods (so my pet went without for a day) and she got mad because it was the wrong brand of cat food.

I'm not real sure who you believe is admiring you but perhaps you should private message them.

I will say, you picked your job as a BDSM girl well, because you've been torturing us for years.

You've retired 30 times. They say old whores don't retire, they just fade away. I'd take it as a kindness if you'd get to fading.... But I know better, see you next month!!

PS if you would like one of the mods to go to an extreme amount of their time doing you a favor, I'd suggest sending them a list of threads and a very kind request to remove them. However, you know damn good and well the best you can hope for is a guesting of your account and the rremoval of any ads (assuming you do all the leg work locating said threads and sending links.... But that requires you to actually spend effort working.)

HNIC · 01-01-2013, 11:56 AM

Ouchie!!!! ^^

Bigtex69 · 01-01-2013, 11:59 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by LovingKayla

and shes batshit crazy to boot.

Yeah I tend to agree with your statement here. For my first hobby experience I choose to call her and she just about scared me out of this hobby just by how feeaking batty she was. Luckily my next choice was much much better!

Guest013121 · 01-01-2013, 12:08 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Mya Michelle

I know that i am getting old as well going on 24, if i dont do something better now, I know that i will create a rut that i will not be proud to be in at 30

24 is not old girl! lol. Shit, Im almost 35. Everyone finds their way when they're ready to, not at a certain age. Just keep peace of mind and take each day with a grain of salt sexy

Quote:

Originally Posted by LovingKayla

Ok wait... 19 years and you need help paying basic bills to retire on?

Has there ever been a thread you started that didn't ask for money?

For you new folks, don't fall for this. This woman does this about 4 times a year, and shes batshit crazy to boot. She's right on schedule to ask for more money. Have I mentioned how when we helped her a few years back, I gave her everything I had in the way of cat food and canned goods (so my pet went without for a day) and she got mad because it was the wrong brand of cat food.

I'm not real sure who you believe is admiring you but perhaps you should private message them.

I will say, you picked your job as a BDSM girl well, because you've been torturing us for years.

You've retired 30 times. They say old whores don't retire, they just fade away. I'd take it as a kindness if you'd get to fading.... But I know better, see you next month!!

PS if you would like one of the mods to go to an extreme amount of their time doing you a favor, I'd suggest sending them a list of threads and a very kind request to remove them. However, you know damn good and well the best you can hope for is a guesting of your account and the rremoval of any ads (assuming you do all the leg work locating said threads and sending links.... But that requires you to actually spend effort working.)

OH WOW!

LovingKayla · 01-01-2013, 12:28 PM

I missed the part about her being 24 and then in the business 19 years. You started when you were 5? Are you Muslim?