Honey,
I can understand your frustrations, but you must remember that most young men your age are still in school and broke as hell! I can speak from experience.....I have a son your age and believe me, he's broke! Even if you aren't in school, do you have a good enough job to support this hobby?
If you are hell bent in finding a provider, then I would suggest that you start a thread in the Dallas ISO! Ask the ladies who may be interested to reply to your thread or PM you!
I was going to give the mom lecture, but decided against it......I'm too damn tired to deal with kids!
Good luck to you, sweetie!