Joylen I think I speak for everyone involved when I say you posting nudes of yourself would be a good start at healing the pain you have caused :-)
In all seriousness sometimes life's tribulations are unavoidable. You coming here and publicly apologizing just goes to show what an outstanding provider you are. I am sure you will make it up to the parties involved giving the opportunity.
Now back to those nudes you are going to post I can offer my services as photographer as well a male talent should you require such