You may want to try your luck with Tinder, Plenty of Fish, Ashley Madison (oh wait, bad idea), etc.
Interactions with hookers is always about the Benjamins and busting a nut. If it isn't for you, then you are being delusional.
Hookers have sex for money (or don't have sex for money, your choice). This is their livelyhood. You like to bust a nut (or talk to them, because no one else cares enough about you to listen).
- The smart hookers will act as though they give a shit about you while you are on the clock.
- The smart hookers with good business acumen will follow up on you, because you are a good source of income (so long as you are a regular customer).
I'm not saying that people can't build friendships, but those can be problematic if you (or her) have a seperate life outside of the hobby. If you want that kind of a friendship, then get a girlfriend (or have an affair... oh wait, those are also problematic for the same reasons as getting a hooker).
If you have to talk to someone, then get a therapist. Perhaps then you'll be able to figure out why you like paying for prostitutes and why you feel so rejected.