Marisa of Dallas Morning News Article

[marisaofdallas]

I

'm different, life has shown me reasons to be ..
I apologize for anything in my past
But I don't live there anymore

2 years ago my business and my life was handing me some pretty bad circumstances, leading to some very poor decisions...things are very different now

[Tetas]

Welcome back.

[Randall Creed]

Interesting.

[oldbutstillgoing]

Originally Posted by marisaofdallas

I

'm different, life has shown me reasons to be ..
I apologize for anything in my past
But I don't live there anymore

2 years ago my business and my life was handing me some pretty bad circumstances, leading to some very poor decisions...things are very different now

Hmm, sounds like almost exactly the same thing another provider posted recently. Hope it works out better for you

[Grace Preston]

Marisa-- I wish you nothing but the best, but you have to understand that the general consensus is going to be dubious at best. You have a long, loud, stormy history and have violated cardinal rules of the game many, many times. People don't generally trust a dog after they've been bitten a couple times.

Again-- I hope your personal growth and change is sincere and I hope having a major health scare has caused you to take a serious look at the things you've done to others.. and I hope you've grown into a better person from it.

[marisaofdallas]

YEs ma'am agreed.

I haven't actually returned.
I posted an and to "feel" things out. .

I have had some REALLY wonderful things happen
but every opportunity seems to lead to
more disappointment and heartbreak..

Relying on others has put me in a very uncomfortable and vulnerable position.
I cannot go into detail but I have to try and help myself be independent because PEOPLE CANNOT BE RELIED UPON
I certainly also don't want to be abused or neglected by anyone. .

REALLY DIFFICULT things still exist
Like my health.
I am healthy most days
I have lots of Dr appointments and unpredictable health issues that make it hard to find a job. .plus I don't want to lose my FULL Medicaid benefits. .

I'm very different I've come to terms with many things, accepted them.
I'm not angry anymore

I live a healthier lifestyle
And I appreciate everything more than I used to
I am humbled and realize how precious time is and people's feelings

I'm alone but it's better than being in bad company. .

I have been fighting for disability benefits and treatment IS REALLY HELPING

I have needs that are financial and emotional that are NOT BEING MET. .
my business used to provide for me

I'm NOTHING like who i used to BE

like I said
Not sure if I'll return or if I will just do some here and there
It's a tough decision. .

My Car was stolen Saturday
hasn't been found. Liability only
I drive to Dallas for my healthcare
I have to replace it asap
so many other things. ..
I don't have other options. .

My
But so far everyone I've spoken to has been really awesome..

Happy thanksgiving everyone. .
This is the first Thanksgiving I'm spending alone..
Away from negativity. .lol

Love yall

[SweaterPuppies]

Just when things were starting to get boring around here, something amazing like this happens!

[marisaofdallas]

I'm boring. ..

Believe me..

[Jules Jaguar]

Does medicaid cover transportation to and from drs appointments? Im thinking there must be a program for that? Im on my phone so cant really research it in depth right now but just an idea.

[Grace Preston]

She lives outside of the range of DART, otherwise she could utilize their service. I'm not sure of what services there are outside of that realm.... she's on the wrong side of the Metro for me to have any solid leads for her.

[threepeckeredbillygoat]

Originally Posted by marisaofdallas

Little do you know what surprise I have for this ENTIRE BOARD.
LOL
YOU ARE GOING TO EAT YOUR WORDS
BECAUSE I HAD THE LAST LAUGH

So you out people, beg for forgiveness, then give what (see quote above) seems like a threat to the whole board.... after you've already gone public in a newspaper.... and you actually expect anyone to believe you will or can actually be discreet? You think peoples ears aren't perked up wondering if you're not setting them or anyone who contacts you up?

I wouldn't put it past you to work with "outsiders" and try to bring our community and the site down.

Anyone talking to you is out of their mind.

[marisaofdallas]

It's not that serious
lay off the conspiracy theories
take it or leave it
Its genuine
look at my facebook if you want proof

I didn't say I wanted anything or needed anything
I haven't even "returned"

Don't worry about me
I don't have the same outlook, problems or goals

Just trying to make it through treatment and this thing called life


yes medicaid does provide transportation but my health care doesn't transfer to Fort Worth until after the first of the year, I am currently receiving treatment in Dallas, and there is no transportation for someone living in Fort Worth to Dallas, you must live reside in the same county as your health care,
I still need a car for a lot of other reasons...

thank you for offering to do some research and help, that means a lot to me

[200K]

Marisa, sounds like you had hit bottom, and are trying to do the long, hard climb to a better life.
Make good, smart decisions. Think twice, act once. get rid of the negative people in your life. Think and act positive and reduce drama.

Like ruining your credit, so easy to do, but fixing it is not so easy.

The past cannot be changed, but only you can change your future!

[marisaofdallas]

Yes sir. Exactly
I completely admit my faults, apologize
And I can only say that no one needs waste their time trying to make me feel bad
I already feel more terrible than words can explain

But there is hope
There is always an opportunity to resolve and change
Its all about choices
And it's important to me to clean the slate
Wherever I can

I may not be able to change or make amends to everyone
But I can damn sure try

We are talking about my ability to face my mortality and illness without fear of my past shortcomings

I have no bad intentions

I started out as one of the most loved providers
Something happened
Something went very wrong

I need to fix that something
And I need to be at peace that I genuinely tried to resolve as much as I could
Forgiveness is a powerful thing

Goodnight and thank you

[Guest070818-1]

^^^You are more likely to make more positive changes off this board, rather than be on it and vent about all your shortcomings.

And on facing mortality . . .

We all die a little bit more each and every second.

Think about it.

Those seconds, which add up to minutes, hours, days, and years are things that we will never ever get back.

Don't waste energy on what's already gone and past - You're just going to speed up the process!

So, F*cking Carpe Diem!