To answer my own questions...
1. Most unbelievable date ever: Was with a guy in a LTR and had a freaking blast. The guy stayed the night, and the whole next the day, he was being stand-offish and giving me strange looks...all the while I'm being all lovey-dovey. That night I asked him to take me out again for a more relaxed night of drinks at a pub. We get to the second or third drink and the conversation is easy. He asks me..."so, do you remember breaking up with me last night?" WTF?!?!?...the whole rest of the night I had to convince him that I didn't mean it. I admit it: on the way home the night before, I blacked out and had a serious conversation with him that I didn't remember having. During that conversation with him, I had admitted to my insecurities and not being sure that I was a good enough person to be with him, and that it was hard to look at him and live up to his (in reality
my) expectations, so I took the easy way out and broke up with him. We spent a great deal of time over the next week, joking about how he should have taken the free 24 hour pass and gotten him some rebound pussy. Hehe...no more black-outs for me...or a least scaled-down quite a bit
About my behavior above, I am not proud, but I think on this thread, my peeps have come to understand me through my candidness. Take it and process it as you like, but remember that I am human, and hopefully the rest of you reading this are too.
2. Last time I cried: daily...okay, not daily, but yesterday. I read something on a SHMB and thought WTF is this world coming to?!?! I'm a weakling, what can I say?
Hint: sarcasm is the spice of life...smh
... you are the best #1!
