He has an online profile that says this:
I am starting to hate women Mood: depressed.
I am not surprised.
And this in another place.
Aug 1, 2009 @ 6:00 PM suicide is painless (not the last attempt)
mortalez
8 years ago I bottomed out depressed, and took a bottle of pain killers.
Well it did not have the deseired result I woke up 3 days later unfortunatly still alive and in great physical pain well here I am again bottomed out and facing my 39th birthday alone, I have no wish to go through another year of hearing my voice eco, so I am at a loss.
I love myself but I hate life right now, I have over 200 resume's floating around out there but I still have a job I hate, most of my friends have moved out of state(looking for work) and I have no love in my life I had to let my motorcycle go back so I am stuck driving my crappy car, and again I have no love in my life.
I wont be missed lord knows my long string of ex-GF's will dance on my grave.
All I wanted was to be happy but every time I find myself happy something comes along and ruins it.
I feel the phrase "you get back what you put into" is the biggest lie ever told
I entered the dating world full of hope and have been crapped on when everything was going good. I entered the work force during the best economy in american history and now I cant find a job that does not make me want to stab my throat.
I have had some great jobs too, I've managed a strip club, I have been a night manager at a machine shop(cool people worked there), but usually when I find a good place to work after awhile new management come in and turns it into a nazi work camp. I have dated some wonderful women in my youth I have many happy memories, saddly most of them are decades old, my best years are behind me and I see that now. I dont plan on seeing 39 I want to leave here with the knowlege that I did have some good times in my life and skip the pain of the rest of it.
A wise man once said "we die at 25 and are buried at 80" I really understand that statement.