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Originally Posted by bjwstw
you gotta play it out and see.
if she brings a uhaul to your house, run,lol
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bj,
I appreciate your experience and the many hurts you have suffered while genuinely engaging with several providers. They may have issues of their own. I have spoken on the telephone with at least one of those who caused you much pain; when there were no "business" issues between us, I was struck by how sensitive and empathic a person I was speaking to, and how much she was opening up to me about all sorts of personal things that had no relations to anything at all. Perhaps because we were not ever going to be meeting on a patron-provider level, she felt free to speak as an ordinary person. I am sad that circumstances have changed, but hope it is all for the better. This same experience has been repeated thrice over, with separate individuals, each from different locations. I leave you to judge whether these are aberrations, delusions, or the possible emergence of a pattern. I am sure you sense the level of pain that is out there, and the variety of personalities is vast, spanning all possible regions of the spectrum: from the vulnerable and loving to areas that defeat my abilities of understanding.
Regarding Trisha turning up in a U-Haul, or otherwise taking any sort of immoral pecuniary advantage, please trust my word if you can. I do know this very fine young lady in some more ways than many here. She has a very rich private life, and many are determined to see it become richer and completely fulfilled long after we are no more.
Please understand that this is absolutely not in the sense of being sugar daddies. It comes out of trying VERY HARD to understand who this person is as a woman, what her goals are in life, and how we can be a positive part of fulfilling those goals, say even 60 years down the line. You can see that concupiscence does not enter into the scheme of things here.
You are judging a small business entrepreneur solely because of the nature of her business, and yet actresses, models, spiritual personalities, lawyers, financiers, and so many who buy and sell on the marketplace their native talents are seen as admirable role models! I wonder how much our attitudes are due to our own poverty of spirit and how much of it is due to our inability to break free from certain cultural mores?
As I have emphasized here before to much ridicule, there are many other genuine and profound moral systems that see the task of a provider as a profoundly spiritual and self-sacrificing effort. When offered consciously in this mode, the results are spectacular. When not done so, and made a vehicle for greed, the results are equally horrendous. Compare medical or legal practice: when people become doctors or lawyers to fleece those in pain for their last pennies, the results are horrific for all concerned. Those who enter these helping professions with a sense of noble purpose can uplift all they touch.
I can relate more than one personal experience. I had a very sad experience when my wife chose to leave. I sent a lawyer in Northampton, MA, a significant sum for an uncontested divorce. The man did everything perfectly, and perhaps sensed the circumstances of the case and my grief. he sent me back my check and would not take it back, regardless of my protests. Perhaps my prayers and humble blessings each day mean nothing, or perhaps they do, far more than some mere dollars.
The same is the case with Trish. What she gives to many is similar to what this lawyer gave to me: a sense of being uplifted, being made more established in my humanity. The U-HAUL thing simply does not apply to her.
I am sure she is not an angel, but along with many providers, she falls on the side of those who UPLIFT, rather than demean. I have come across so many of the former sort, that it is my fervent prayer that they recognize their true natures and true vocations which can be concurrent with their present small business activities.
I humbly request the moderators to not expunge this post until at least a few people have read it. Please pardon my inability to express myself in English, without writing a great many sentences, carefully qualifying my words. I fear the dangers of miscommunication in a language not my own. On we go!!
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