I was at a wedding this weekend for my best friend. Prior to the rehearsal dinner, followed by bachelor party, was a visit to a special provider for a very long fuck fest (see reviews). Perhaps one person knows about my "hobbying", and she'd never say a word.
Here's the sitch. I'm not married. Engaged, but not married, per se. No kids. Interestingly enough, when I mention this, I get a look that says, "
REALLY? Well, come on over to the dark side..." It's an interesting dynamic we have (we, being the collective us), and I suppose if one took the time, he or she might make an actual friend, albeit an expensive one; but a friend nonetheless.
This is the best goddamned therapy I've ever had. I mean it. My family is the family from "Everybody Loves Raymond". I watch that show, laugh and get flashbacks (I identify with Robert. We're both grossly misunderstood and incredible dancers). For whatever reasons we're here (mine are very simple, I believe), I think on some level we want to be understood. So when I feel like a person can keep pace with my sense of humor and intelligence, I see them again, if our personalities click. It's not so much about how hot someone is, but that is indeed a factor. My S.O. is incredibly hot by any social standard, but its this being understood thing that gets me.
In addition to this, there's (or should be) a level of inhibition I think, with someone you'll see often. I'm trying to find a way to dumb this down so I don't seem like I'm ranting (for my sake). So far, I've encountered one person I'm really becoming comfortable with that I feel I can really be myself around, with no regard to inhibition or censor (for the most part).
My best friend got married and he ended up sleeping with his new wife's friend before the wedding. She was his surprise stripper/Sexual Ninja for the evening, and he shared this with me (as if I can't hear you fucking in the bathroom?). Talking to him openly was very interesting, and I realized I share a lot about who I am with certain providers. For whatever the reason, and I'm not looking for a diagnosis here or opinions about myself; I think these "encounters" put "me" in a different perspective. I'd never call
myself a genius, but it does require a certain type of person to not think I'm bat-shit crazy and keep up.
I don't know. I was a little bored and tired of analyzing securities and corporate finance, so I thought I'd post this. I'm probably not making a lot of sense because I've gotten approximately 4 hours of sleep in 3 days. My real question is, are you a business first, chit-chat after kind of person, or do you find yourself talking to or connecting with an ATF of sorts? I don't necessarily mean I spill huge amounts of specific personal information, but after doing this for about a year and a half or so; I do like someone to listen occasionally. Or take an interest. I suppose I'd define that as maybe 50% of GFE, at least. For me, anyhow.
Do You Share More With Providers Than With "Real" Friends?
