Quietly grieving

[Goose7093]

WARNING: This post will be raw and emotional. If this isn’t your cup of tea, I would move on.

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All,

This may not be the appropriate place to put this, but I’m not sure where else to go.

I was informed last night that my ATF of 17+ years passed away. She was more than just an ATF, actually. Way more. We started out in the hobby realm, but soon transcended it. While we may have kept a foot in the hobby door, we became very real friends. We texted almost every day. That close friendship really made the time we were together pretty amazing.

Yes, we loved each other. Love meaning cared for, not “in love”. We didn’t want to take things further.

Her family and friends are in my thoughts; however, I’m sad that our story is frozen in time. I find myself reliving all those times we went to lunch or dinner, the parks we went to, or just our conversations. That’s the part I’ll miss the most.

This woman touched my life in a very special way, and yet I must grieve in silence. That’s the hardest part of all, and so I felt the need to put this to “paper” here.

So….a personal note to her:

Thanks, L. Thanks for taking the time to get to know me. When I first met you, I never expected it to turn out this way. There’s a part of my heart you took with you, and I’ll never get that back. No one else will ever fill that hole.

I’ll move on, but our friendship and adventures will always be with me.

Sincerely,

M

[MarcellusWalluz]

Sorry for your (& the hobby community) loss.

[Jilge]

Originally Posted by MarcellusWalluz

Sorry for your (& the hobby community) loss.

Amen..PEACE be with you! This is not as unusual as most or many would think.

[Ripmany]

Never had a 17 year ATF but I got a call from a woman family she 33 years old still young and there told me her real name and she pass I have seen her in 3 years. Look name up Facebook I remember seeing her a half dozen times a few years back. I could never determine her cause of death but she also refuse use condoms.

[LustyBustyGina38FF]

So sorry to hear this ..
I had 2 very good AFT regs that passed away about 2 yeras ago both where so sweet and I still miss them and think of them .

R.I.P L

[mtabsw]

I sort of understand - I lost one this year I had known and "loved" in a nice hobby way since 2006. We do tend to get feelings, and your pain is real.

[Dr-epg]

Out of an abundance of caution this thread is closed

#28 - On occasion, we may lose a valuable member of our community as a result of an unexpected accident, natural causes, or other various circumstances. The grieving process when these situations arise is often difficult and ECCIE has established a procedure to follow in such cases to protect the memory and more importantly the anonymity of our deceased member. A brief announcement will be made to inform the membership and honor the deceased member's contributions here without revealing any circumstances that may jeopardize the privacy of any of the parties involved. It will be immediately locked, and no further discussion allowed.