Bar part 5
I don't bother to clean the room. Now my head no longer spins but my stomach churns. It wants to wretch. I felt for her and now she's gone. Forever. What's wrong with me? Must clear my head. Yeah, you’ve been under a lot lately that's all.
I begin to think “Remember your training” but I laugh it off. I have to get the fuck out of here is all.
I gather what I can use and slip out of the room.
It must be 4 or 5 blocks through the rain later that I find shelter in a downstairs club.
The air is thick with smoke and noise from a local stand up comic.
I sit at a table for two by the brick wall and shiver and laugh to myself. “I'm so fucked.”
On stage a greasy unkempt puke points at me and a spotlight follows. The small crowd laughs at something he shouts but I'm not here with them at the moment.
The spotlight and the crowd's attention leaves me. It's seems whenever I want to be alone it's not to be.
A waitress who wants to be anywhere but here asks what I want to drink. “Jack and Coke.” Not my favorite but it's my go to drink on the go. Saves time and explanation.
For the hundredth time I grasp my gun. My pants are so soaked from the rain I can squeeze the water out of them. I send a text to Open to have the cab outside in 15 minutes. She texts back that this is her beauty sleep time. “I'll make it worth your while.” Is what I type back.
My waitress comes with my drink on a small tray. I stand and down the drink and place a 20 on her tray.
She starts to say something about change but I'm half way to the door.
My life is by a thread and my mind thinks of the waitress. I wish I could have talked to her. Her eyes betrayed her. I don't look back. It's funny because ten years ago I would have.
Standing in the stairwell I look up. It's still raining hard but it must be starting to get late.
I reach the top of the stairs but there is no cab. “Fuck.”
|