box of sand.....

[_Jayne_]

Being in the state of choicless blackness, or suffice it to say VERY DARK on an otherwise bright platform, is not actually the ideal time or place to post in the interim space of canal coating...but its better than printing personal trash into your intersection veiw place. I can not change the way my god given name rolls me into shakespears english epic fail opportunity, nor can I k n ow without it being a coin flip guess whether I am in in itsy bitsy land or grand surface (Thats more like floating in exhaust air, if you ask me ) So i am left to communicate for those in the alternate who either do or dont even know that there is a real differenc in the two..a slight difference in the three, and an HMO qualifyer between those and the fourth. I wrong turned once and thats the only reason I know about that. It did not take long before I totally screwed that lid in the righty un tighty direction and discovered AND inadvertantly announced to eveyone who didnt need to know where i was, and noone who cold have assisfed heard or suspected a thing.
So , now i must ask the question I wont be able to see or hear be answered..." How do you leave here ?" ,,
My sand box as a kid was under a tree that was about as big on top as the metal lined plywood box was which eld the sand . In that box, I learnrd that life isnt a playschool looking for a tonka back ho, and that hot wheels get screwed up and you get yelled at for rolling them through the sand, through oil spills, through your back channel, and through the future. Makes me wonder what the purpose of hot wheels really is anyway ?

When I say hot wheels, by the long way to noplace fast, I mean that there is the potential to power or project in or from them... someone...or a bunch of someones misunderstood these unspoken words of perception long ago and they now, clearly , only are benefitting from wheels in motion housed by carriages on asphalt....not in sand boxes. Not in lone danger by strangers places, Not in horizontal human use, and definately not from the direct contact un chartered by the traveling shell house of those who use the net to do eveything BUT fish , while leaving fishermenw ho dont even eat seafood to exist in their place as loop anglers. I swear, by and large, yoh could ask one or all of thes pole holding persons what they are fishing for ? You could ask them what they get, personally out of the sport of fishing and the act of reeling whatever is captured , or captioned by the hook on transparent thread hangin over murky water thing..... and they would just access some old reused story about their daddy or their grand daddy from way back soon ..and you would listen and grin. Nod your head. Then walk away and never think consciously about it again . But...in two hund 'red years...after your hot wheel collection and fishing rod cap tackle box trio is long gone or tied up in a family dispute which doesnt resolute until those it mattered to die...and now have it all back in the exacf same state someplace else.... That fish tale will become a part of your memory
bank that you may...OR MAY NOT pack up on purpose under next years cedar tree.

My point here is....that That wich you deem important in your instruction and life lessons for your lifetime or one time only audience of learners.... can sometimes leave the attentive in a dark lonely permanent space while they wait...,because they aldead
already used their frr time to run the ropes of self awareness and proof of truth in your words....and now they just wait for you to put it togather for them,,,because you know they will. They always have in the past. BUT... I finally must accept and carress the truth in this myth patience journey of now. There comes a time when everyone moves on past their own paths...beyond the lessons they were teaching because they finally learn one for the classics of their own. There is no pink slip or memorandum i.ner office or skyped that tells you your course has ended unfinished and dis accurate . No one understands what you were waiting on all this time...they are not capable of veering from their knowledge strand ...in any state from this point on. they are full and therefore unable to add another layer, see another angle, find the off road option on their vehicle or be liscened and authorized by their inner god to go further with open arms, objective mind and room for passengers and caravan space behind. IT IS DISAPPOINTING. SO what must i do to get my wheels back on the border surrounding my real life sand box of knowledge and fun and potential for harnessing new power and pleasure while Im stuck in negative personable space for the ignorant babies in forth something gear. that hates reflection ?
What good is a SATurday night , a weekend, a vacation, a free space in their battleship grid or a square already in pay ways on your proverbial ..and bingo was his name mo... life patter.

Am i just supposed to wait for the ping pong ball with my code od endorphin jostling is announced from a place I cant even get
to, or is it a bettef plan to restore absolution of inadequacy to everyones pespective in my space. ? Is a white horse or a black hat or a bright light going to Sweep spin or swoop down , or up, or over here and rescue me from what has been illustrated and carried out to look like personal bad choicing and less than up to par standards in my personal cores codec registry.?

Do i spend all my time complaining and whining about being misunderstood...re reading and rethinking things i learned in the wrong order ? Editing and correcting text which was touched right but technology altered to make sence to someone else while making me look foolish ?

Whats a squad shelfed sucker who believed in the unseen, the ourageous, the long shot long way home , and true love and family value truths to do ?
How can i teach my child the truth in theory when none I believed in have a last page or a chance of a generatio.nal sequal .

and finally...is opera or digit expression more valuable ...or less damaging. More permanent or less lasting . Offensively ....which is more effective ?

just text for trial and tribulation.....noone helped me with it... Obviously....And noone can ever be sure if Its me and my thoughts or your language connecting with your audience to be told something totally not what I had in mind writting it. News. Sport. Not new port.

have an informative day along the union of credit per mind space.... I am going jay walking in the dark along a vacant track with zero destination or expectation. It did not ring.


Hows that for intelligible or clear thought projection ? How many red pens did you need to note and point out typos ? Is it distorted thinking ? Are they my thoughts...or time leased out for alternate use and obstructive purpose ? or am i just completely out of line and innappropriate... and if so...id it because your egg timer got sprung and yor transport skipped some teeth ? How do we learn to communicate effectively and kindly to where we finally cant deny that we all want the same things ? And that even the cruelest , most ignorant, socially inept and percieved dangerous...just want to be understood and agreed with ....sans the whimpy dorkish suit those directed to represent the feared and hated must wear to be heard and to be empowered in the search for sanity and change. .

Fitting in with out fear...and without having to run or be run. , thats the xxx 're I

[pyramider]

If you post taint photos your post will be much more clear. Your taint is the key to understanding the universe.

[bored@home]

Originally Posted by _Jayne_

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someone...or a bunch of someones misunderstood these unspoken words
Super true, or they don't have the cipher
Not in horizontal human use,
I plan to use this, nice word play
those who use the net to do eveything BUT fish ,
Net & fish..again nice turn of text
could ask one or all of thes pole holding persons what they are fishing for ?
pole holding persons on a escort board are pretty much fishing for sound advice right
But...in two hund 'red years...after your hot wheel collection and fishing rod cap tackle box trio is long gone or tied up in a family dispute which doesnt resolute until those it mattered to die...and
In two hund red years it won't matter no way no how so no real loss
What good is a SATurday night , a weekend, a vacation, a free space in their battleship grid
Pretty sure this is the hook of a disco track??
Am i just supposed to wait for the ping pong ball
Sounds like a party trick gone afoul..seek medical advice soon

Stay gold and happy st pats

[angusranch]

Dang, is there a Cliff Notes version?

[slowmover]

Hey Jayne, nice to see you're still around.

[Crzytxn]

Hello miss Jayne.... Hope you're doing well.

Cliff Notes........ Nope

[Ravasher]

I couldn't finish the first paragraph. Damn ADD. I would also like the cliff notes version.

[cyrax]

Please add a tl;dr version please!

[gntman]

Good to hear your voice again, Jayne. You have something very special in your core that makes you an original version, not a copy of a copy of a copy that many of us are. Be well.

[sweet.treat69]

Amen. Cliff notes please. Totally lost me halfway into the first paragraph lol

[crashkopf]

Too many metaphors and similies... As if attempting to be scholarly...

You writing voice, to me, would be much better, and easier to digest, if it were simple and to the point. With good punctuation !

It was too difficult for me to understand your intention in your missive.


And understand I am NOT insulting you. I just, kinda, wanna know what you are addressing in a simple manner.

Thank you.

[mmcqtx]

Yeah, I remember the '60's, the poor misguided youth who "opened" their minds in the Age of Aquarius and were going to bring peace to mankind by dropping out, tuning in and turning on. I shook my head at them then, as I am shaking my head now. Being purposefully cryptic is not proof of intellectualism or original thought. If you really want to change the world or your place in it, make a plan, stay clear-headed and execute your plan day by day. If the plan fails, devise a new one or get help from those you see as successful. It is mundane, but it works.

[oldbutstillgoing]

Jayne, its always great to read your thoughts in writing. Though it has been a few years since I last saw you, I think of you from time to time and smile. You are indeed a special person, one of a kind, and the world would be a poorer place without you.

Oh, how's the golf game these days?

[FunInDFW]

Originally Posted by _Jayne_

Hows that for intelligible or clear thought projection ?

To me, it's neither. I can't tell if this is incredibly high-brow, I'm missing the cypher to understand what's really being replaced with ellipses and the rest of the content, or what.

Well done for keeping it up in that long of a post whatever the reason my be!