This line of work isn't easy. But thats why we get the big bucks. It's harder then people give us credit for. You have to be good. Perform good. Act good. Look good. Smell good. Converse good. Pretend all is good when it's all wrong. Above all, you must have good, thick skin to be able to deal with all the bad in escorting. Just focus on the goods.
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4 references?? Four? Thats a bit much don't you think? Hun, are you sure your not deliberately making it difficult for the clients to meet with you because subconsciously you really don't want to do this? Just a thought to ponder. If you don't want to do this anymore, but you still need the money (I can relate) then just take a break. Take a vacation. Then come back when your rested and refreshed.