I used to think people (including friends and family) who play the lottery were crazy. Spend $10 or whatever every week with hopes me the big win but all they ever get is a few bucks here and there, certainly not enough to cover their costs.
I used to visit our lovely providers semiregularly, at least every month or two and got the return I expected as many on here do, but for the last year approximately except for one visit, I've been playing the lottery instead.
A female friend of mine has re-emerged and I find myself irrationally in lust with her. We (both with SO's) go out semi frequently and have fun, even at strip clubs sometimes...but she's not interested in (or maybe not willing to?) escalating our activities. Still, tempted by winning a peck here and a feel there, I persist with hope of the jackpot.
It's so weird to consciously make poor decisions and not look to change
Not sure what my point is, but sorry ladies, an unintentional provider has me caught up in the ultimate tease and keeps the hobby fund low. Time to go buy some lottery tickets this weekend.